It’s always best to be who you are.

One of the good things when you’re feeling sad and emotional, ideas just pops. Here’s a conversation between Nicole (the soul occupying Angela’s body) and Josh (Angela’s clueless boyfriend). Nicole was pretending to be Angela and has an amnesia to get away with the things she didn’t know about Ang.

“I wanted to understand you,” he murmured as he gazed at his hands. “I never forced our relationship back did I? I just want you back to me because I thought you’d still love me. I tried to gain you back Ang. I tried so hard. I am trying. But,” and then he looked at her with glassy eyes, “I guess you’re not the Ang I used to have.” His voice broke at the last word and he put his fingers at the corner of his eyes. “The most painful thing is that,” he sobbed, “I am trying to understand what happened. My head tells me the accident took the Angela I love, but my heart refuses to understand. Because one day was all it took Ang. One day! We were happy and suddenly it is all gone. It is devastating. I understand if you can’t find the feelings you used to have for me. Believe me I want to move on but when you spent your life with someone, when you tell her your stories and weaknesses, when not a day pass without the two of you talking, you’ll go crazy once it’s gone. I wish I had been in that car accident with you so I don’t have to remember every single happy memory we had. It’s killing me Ang,” he said as tears ran down his cheeks. He looked at her and found it hard to speak. This man in front of him was aching because of her. She wanted to do what she can to stop his pain, but how? She could feel his pain like an echo to her heart.

                She reached out and wiped the tears on his cheeks, cupping his face, before she pulled him closer to hug. What can I do. Tell me Angela. If this is the price I have to pay, I will.

who didn’t realize how much I trusted him/her. I didn’t realize it either until the past few days. That much trust isn’t given away quickly. It is being earned. Now I come to another realization that trusting everything to a person can mean being attached, whether you like it or not. Sometimes I wonder, do I regret it? Probably not because at some point, you really did help me overcome a few things in my life. I just thought you’d always be there. I guess not. I’m not bitter or anything like that. Just sad. It may sound like a cliche but we never realize how much a person means to us till they’re gone. When you were there, I don’t feel alone. I wish I could thank you for everything you’ve done for me but maybe that’s just how far you’d go. I didn’t saw it coming. You leaving. So, sad. But yeah. Thanks for everything you’ve done for me. I’ll try to stop being sad as soon as I can but I’ll miss you.